An apology to my Mom:

Mom, I’d like to take a minute and apologize for not being there for you when Gramma died. I didn’t know how to deal with it myself, and so I just pretended that everything was fine and didn’t talk about it. For that, I’m sorry. Going through what I am now, I can see it was the worst thing to do. To ignore the fact that you were hurting and probably needed someone to talk to, to ask you how you were doing, and I was no where around for you. I never asked you how you were doing, or if you wanted to talk or even just gave you a hug. I knew if I did any of the above, it would have made me break down and cry as well, and I didn’t want to make you feel worse or bring it up if you didn’t want to talk about it. I should have thought about you, and not worried that it was going to make me cry again – and for that, I’m truly sorry. I can’t take any of it back or rewind the time, but I hope you know how I feel and that I am really sorry for not being there for you. I LOVE YOU!!

See – that’s another thing about fighting this and going through a crisis, it has a way of bringing out your more compassionate side. I know now how much it hurts when people ignore me and don’t ask how I’m doing, or if there’s anything they can do for me – or just plain giving me a hug. A person doesn’t have to say much, a simple, ‘I’m sorry’ and a hug will do. With that, we know you‘re thinking about us, you’re recognizing that we are going through a tough time in our lives and that you’re there for us. What more could we ask for?


An explanation of our cruise

One more quick note. Some of you are probably wondering how we have the nerve to ask for money, when we're about to go on a cruise, right? Well, what you don't know, is that my parents are pretty much paying for the entire thing. Yes, we received money for our wedding, that we called our 'honeymoon fund', but we had to use that money for the fertility treatments we've already gone through.

My parents knew how much we were looking forward to going on our honeymoon, and knew even more, that we needed a break. This past year has been very stressful for us, and if we're about to go through rounds of IVF, they decided that we needed the holiday – a stress relief. And for that, we'll never be able to thank them enough.